grateful redux

It’s March. Thank goodness. Or something. Today I’m grateful:

for Friday. ‘Nuff said.

for words in an email yesterday that touched me in just the right (and much needed) way. I can feel the fog trying to lift thanks to them…and the friend who sent them.

for knowing that even though I’ve done some pretty stupid things this last month or so, I don’t have to keep repeating them over and over.

for daughter #2’s trip to Philly in just a few days. Some kind of field trip eh? I must admit to being a bit worried though as I think they’re flying on Southwest and hasn’t that airline just been in the news for poor plane conditions? I guess I could get off my ass and read the news page couldn’t I?

for doing my best not to worry about daughter #2 on the above mentioned field trip. I can feel my brain, heart, feelings shutting off just when I start thinking about something going wrong. I’m determined not to worry as I know there’s nothing I could do to change whatever’s going to happen. This is a sign that I’m still not in my best place but it’s good that I can write it down at least.

for more sunshine today. Not quite as warm though but I can live with it. Spring is almost here.

for daughter #3 seeming to be in an improved mood. The show’s almost over and she gets to hang with her friends this weekend.

for learning that I have an appointment for an independent medical exam about my hands (finally) in April. This will be almost a year after the pain began but at least it’s going to be dealt with now.

for putting makeup on today. This is big. I’ve felt pretty shitty lately and it’s a good sign that I look like I cared a bit more today.

for ‘aha’ moments yesterday. Really big ones.

for being able to send a text message to my oldest daughter. I’m not real current with technology (although I could be if it wasn’t financially prohibitive!) but that girl carries her cell phone everywhere. I’ve not heard from her in several days so it was good to connect that way.

for maybe going clamming this weekend. If we can hit the tide just right. I hate clams but I love digging them. What would be more fun would be crabbing but I’ll take what I can get…fresh air, the ocean and nothing important to get to in a hurry.

I’m out.

Peace.